Sacrifice

I never intended for this blog to be a "Christian" blog or a blog about God and faith. I intended it to be about my journey and adventures through life. This is my life. God is surrounding me in everything, everyday. So to those who might be following, please be prepared for a bit of Christ!

The journey one can take with God can be a long one. For me it seemed unending... and not in a positive way. In a very negative way. I wanted God to complete me. I wanted God to come and hold me and fix all my problems. To get to the point of peace, seemed like a very long road. 

I didn't understand what I was doing wrong. I told God he can have all that I have, including my heart. I did not know how to better give to God more than my heart. I know that Loving God means admitting we are human, we make mistakes, we need redemption and we need to love Him completely. Wasn't I doing that? Telling Him to take my heart, it is His? 

Part of that is turning away from our sins so we can turn toward Him. I thought I had it all covered. EXCEPT... I held on to an idol. Even when I convinced myself I had let it go. I held onto just the smallest piece of it in my heart. God doesn't want just pieces of my heart, He wants it all. 

Then in my reading I got to Genesis and read about Abraham and Sarah. All they ever wanted was a son, but Sarah was barren. But because of Abraham's faithfulness, God blesses them with a son named Issac. Later in Genesis God want's Abraham to sacrifice his son as an offering. And you know what? That Crazy Abraham, though he loved his son dearly, was willing to do it. God obviously stepped in and offered up a different sacrifice. But Holy Cow! Do you have that much faith? That you are willing to sacrifice your most beloved thing? 

This weekend I met God. I was given a moment of redemption in my own personal life to make up for something in my past. And it was at that very moment that I was able to let go of that small piece of an idol and turn completely towards God. I got to love like Christ and because of that I really experienced Christ. So that sacrifice of my idol gave me something so much more amazing.

Life is not easy and letting go is something that is hard for us in this ADD world.  But knowing your heart is filled with a love greater then anything or anyone's here on Earth is a feeling I could never describe. It makes you shine. It makes you want to shout. It makes you smile!