Diving In

This is my first blog and in order to make it much more interesting I am going to avoid a long introduction and jump right in. This year if I could sum it up and one sentence it would be: "When dreams escape you and hope finds you." Why is that? You may be asking your self. It is because in a single moment your whole life can change and at the time it seems like your whole world is changing (and maybe it is) and you feel like everything is out of control and has flipped upside down(and maybe it has). That is how my year has been thus far. UPSIDE DOWN. 


In college I studied about something called "Perceptual Adaptation". If you are a psychology geek like me you may have heard of this. In the 1890's a guy named George Stratton played around with this concept. If I haven't bored you yet, keep reading, cause this is not just a history lesson. He developed glasses that made  him see the world upside down. He experimented with this to see how the brain would adapt to how our eyes are perceiving the world. The conclusion: We adapt. The brain does not allow us to keep seeing the world upside down. Rather, after about three days it inverts the image so that our world seems right-side up again. I think this is so amazing. God has created such adaptable beings that when everything turns upside down, after a time, it will be right again. 


This year started as an incredibly blessed one. I was in love. I enjoyed watching all my dreams fall into place. I perceived my world as perfect. However, it got turned upside down. It did not work out and I was terribly upset. I know people fall in and out of love every day. But I do not. So, to me, it felt EPIC. Romeo and Juliet epic or Helen of Troy epic. Not only did l fall in love with a person, but I fell in love with happiness and watching my dreams unfold. Everything unraveled quickly as life does. And for that time my world was upside down. 


I had a lot of confusion of where my heart should be. Loving someone who hurts you, is that cause to loose them or do you fight? If they continue to hurt you, do you stay or leave? In life decisions are made and sometimes you don't get a say in the matter. In this case I did not. Which is hard to deal with. Fight or not fight that part of my life is over now. I did learn a lot about myself. I learned I liked control. I like to control my environment. I mean who doesn't? I thought I could have all my dreams come true. I learned I love with everything I have. Even when loving with all you have hurts you. I also learned the most important thing, When our world falls apart it does not have to be the end. Our bodies, our minds, they adapt. We may have to wait three days or three months but we begin to see things more clearly and our world will get flipped right-side up again.


Now you can understand the title of my blog "When Dreams escape you and Hope finds you." My relationship was not completely centered on Christ. I know now that in life to find complete and true happiness you need to have your life centered around Christ. I have hope that I will find someone to love and who loves me in return. But I have also learned that; even without that, I will still find happiness. So here's to new beginnings and Diving in to life!